ATHEISTS, please help me understand.....?

Help me understand how it is worth eternity to just say you don't believe. I truly have a heart that is mourning for you and have decided that I will pray daily for God to bless you, your family, finances, friends. Maybe you got exposed to "religious christians" that tainted your idea of who God really is. I know more christians have hurt me than unbelievers. In light of these comments, do you think you can believe a christian that behaves like me?